The Date is almost here!! The date I get the husband home and the kids get there daddy back. If you have followed me for a while you will know that Rich has been deployed for 5 months. 22 weeks and 3 days to be exact but who's counting!
Now I'm all about honesty so I'm just going to say it how it is. Its been S*%T!!! Not the whole time, but most the time. I have dealt with just about every childhood illnesses going, taken more rides in an ambulance than most do in a lifetime and have been a frequent visitor at the GP surgery, walk in centre and A&E. It has been one thing after another and for someone who has health anxiety it has nearly tipped me over the edge. However I am all about looking for that silver lining or whatever they say and if this deployment has taught me anything it is this. That I am stronger and more independent than I thought. I can handle just about any situation thrown my way even if at the time it feels like I cant. I have had to face my anxiety's and fears head on which has made my anxiety better and worse in a weird way. But the main thing I have realised is I have an amazing group of people who have supported me through it all. whether it was phone calls, letters in the post, messages, online comments or actual physical support, I could not have done it without you all (I'm sure most of you will be reading this) It really is true what they say. In your darkest hour peoples true self will shine and I have realised who I can depend on during those darkest of times.
But it hasn't been all doom and gloom. we have had some amazing times with family and friends during this deployment and last week I flew out to Malta to see Rich for a few days which was so needed! As anxious and upset as I was to leave the kids I had the best time and it was so good to not only spend time as a couple and reconnect but just be "me" for a few days. I wasn't mummy, I didn't have to look after anyone (unless you count looking after a drunk Michelle but that's another story) or cook or clean. Of course I missed them and worried about them but I forgot what it felt like to be "me" and now I've had a taste of it I've made a promise to myself to do a little something for myself at least once a year. A girlie holiday, a spa day just something for me. I plan to write a whole post about my time in Malta. It really is a beautiful place and we plan to go back one day.
So we are just days away from the big homecoming day and I am looking forward to being a complete family again. Time apart really does make you appreciate the little things. Sitting round the table and having a meal together, lazy Sundays watching films in your pjs, dog walks and just everyday life. Being able to have a bath in peace, laying in at the weekend whilst the husband gets up with the kids and mainly to have someone there to help with the everyday tasks that parenthood brings. Our first weekend as a family is being spent doing all of the above and I cant flipping wait! Its been a long time coming.
I plan to film the homecoming day. I think it will be something nice to look back on in years to come and capture the moment the kiddies are reunited with daddy, so stay tuned for that!
And finally thank you to my loyal followers. the ones who message, email, and comment regularly. I'm not sure that you realise just how much your words and support have meant to me over the past 5 months so from the bottom of my heart thank you.
Tasha xxx
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